Existance... a poem

I exist for many reasons.
Existance is futile if you never admit to it.

For some, I exist as a joke.
The thing you tell others to feel better about yourself, as you laugh away into your drink at your fave bar/ pub.

A hypocrite
Sneakily experssing herself on the internet partially hoping no one is listening, because they don't realy care anyway.
Secrectly hoping someone, that one, gets your backwards joke.

A mother
Who stands over you to ensure your homework is done, teeth are brushed and hugs are given.
Life lessons taught, if only for a moment learned.

A christian, but I exist as a human too.
I have my failings and fallings out with my maker.
We struggle, fall out and then we hug again.
People who want to use my "faith" as an example won't have much to live up to, so it'll be easy for them.
My relation with my Lord is constantly changing.

A poet
Though, I use to know it... I did poetry all the time when I was younger. It helped calm the quieting storm.
Poetry is a means of expression, and you hope the impression that others mention of you is one of hope and deep thoughfulness.
Most just get stressed and miss the meaning of a moment now lost.

A lolita fashion-cheapista
Who needs to get a hold of herself and realise that it's just clothes,
And nobody knows that it's an expression, extention of one facet of your inner space.
A show of what your inner grace can be if you truly wish it.

A Contrast
To play in the mud, after just cleaning the house.
Move around without even the hint of the deameanor of a mouse.
These are moments worth living, experiencing and giving.
To have your head in the clouds higher than an airplane.
To get slapped back to earth tumbling in chaos again.

Exsistance is futile if you continue to deny it.


-Nadine Brown

I am about alot of things... A poem.

I am about many things in this world.  If you were to ask me what is most important to me in this world, I would say family just as quickly as a bird would to take to the air.  If you were to ask me what the most important thing in life, I would say, "living".

I am about life, love and the pursut of living for the things that realy matter in life, but most only realize it right before they die.
I am about to strangle another mother for letting her child wait until the very last minute to invite my son to a birthday party.
I am about stressing out over the little stuff (atleast once a month) and having a coranary about the big stuff.
I am about to fly off the handle as two natural disasters hit my family in one week.
I am about the 5'6'' tall, pale olive in complextion and a size 14-16 in jeans.
I am about many things, disloyalty isn't one of them.

-Poem by Nadine Brown
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Cheap Chic: The seller's worst nightmare.


Hi!  If you don't know me, my name is Nadine.

I believe in "Cheap Chic".  This applies to all things in my life, so my clothing is no exception.  Until I find other fashions I am equally excited about, egl sales comm is the place for me.

I love egl sales comm because it is a bargainer's dream place for lolita fashion.  I hunt, bargain and try to squease the best deal I can out of the seller... without too much pain ^_^ (j/k).  I am new to the lolita fashion its true, but never new to bargain shopping! ^_^